UP And down

Hi ALL,

Tomorrow is my computing final exam, but yet I just feel like writing something. Reflecting what I have achieve since I got to Sydney, I realise I did not achieve much. Well, some of the things that I know I am slowly achieving are things like decision making, more independent (especially after I moved out) and become more Happy-Go-Lucky. How so? Now I am in Sydney, away from home, everyday I have to make a lot of decision, such as what to eat, where to go, what to do next, etc. Sometimes snap decisions have to be made. Sometimes the decision is correct, sometimes it is wrong. Sometimes I regret on my decision, sometimes I am happy that I made the decision. There are ups and downs in these decision making process. I just hope that with more experience, I will be able to make better decision from now on.

I wish I will be given a chance to start my life in Sydney all over again. In that way, I will be able to rectify the mistake I did since I got here. I wish I will get the chance to restart my pre-u life, so that I can be a more happy person (rather than be a slave of books). I wish I will get the chance to be in secondary school again, so that I can be a teenager again; teenager = youthful life. I spend my secondary school time mostly on books, now I wonder what I would have gain if I have a more outgoing lifestyle. I regret, but what can I do. Some of these are up to me, while some are not. The only thing I can hope now is to pass the exam, and then try to change myself after the exam. I really wish that I could be a more outgoing person. But, do I have the courage?


Well, this is life isn't it, ups and downs, it is just never perfect. Looking back at my decision to become an engineer, I wonder why I choose that too? Looking across all the careers, I remember at that time, I don't even know what I like and what I want to do. On reflection, I just realise this is largely due to the fact that I concentrate too much of my energy on examinations during secondary school. I didn't really give a serious thought on what my real interest is, what I really want to be. In the end, I simply choose engineering. But, in fact, I don't even know what I really want to be. Sigh... I have made many mistakes during my secondary school life, which indirectly lead to the current state I am in now. Now I just wish I will slowly fall in love with engineering and live with it for the rest of my life.

Well, there is one good thing though. I have found my new motto: Happy-Go-Lucky. It is time to embrace this kind of spirit. I want to be a happy person, I don't want to care what others might think of me (like insisting I should study hard), I just want to live my own life, and this is what I choose to be. At least for the next few years, I wonder can I continue this once I enter the work force. Lol..

Let's leave this for now. Kind of hungry. Time to catch some food. Haha.. Bye.. Take care everyone.

Exam Period!!!

Hey everyone, sorry for the long rest from blogging.. Haha.. It had been a busy time period for me. With the end of week 12, it is exam period now. In addition, I am getting myself a new house. Finally, I can have my own room, in a house closer to university and shops. Lol..

I wish to share my opinions on exam. Don't know why, but since I came to Australia, I am no longer the one I was. I become more relaxed with exam. If before this I can study until late night for just a small test, now I can even have rest (LOTS Of) during the preparation of exam. I guess I finally realise that exam is not the everything in life. There are so many things out there that you can't buy with a good result. From now on, my target for exam is just to pass with slightly above average mark. I will never make myself tired in pursuing the highest mark or distinction. This is just no longer true for uni life. There will always be people who are better than you, all rounder is a term that I cross out from my life. Lol..

Anyway, I just had my first paper today, Mathematics, never my favourite subject. Haha. With lower expectation, I can say I am satisfied with my result. It won't be the same case three years ago, I might be crying 3 years ago the moment I step out of the examination hall. Now, I learned that life is more than exam.

A little preview of what's coming up, discussion on The Phantom Of The Opera, real opera, not movie and my experience with it. Stay tuned.

That's all for now. Wish me luck (Still in exam period, with 2 more papers to kill). Haha. Cheers!